There is a drawer on the far-right side of my entryway table that I do not touch. This is ironic because before Andrew died, I resorted to the drawer religiously. Every hour, I rushed to it in hopes of finding something, anything, that might put out whatever fire we were currently staring into. This drawer … More You Win
On my right foot, near the knuckle by my big toe, my skin forms a little bubble. It happened during the summer following my first grade year. I was playing basketball with my brother and his friends, the older guys in the neighborhood. As I drove to the hoop for a layup, I scraped my … More Scars by Andrew Luetkehans
People say we have a story to tell. One day, we sat down and wrote out the whole timeline of Andrew’s cancer. We wrote a month to month rendition of everything that has gone down from original diagnoses to the most recent prognosis. We spared no details because the details are ingrained in us. We … More How We Choose to Tell a Hard Story
“I am not cut out for this.” I cannot tell you how many times these words have been spoken over the past four years. The truth is, we’re not cut out for this. No one is. Malignant. Cancer. Metastasized. Ewing’s Sarcoma. What horrible words. Nobody is cut out for cancer. No one is cut out … More The Beauty of This Story
“May you always be kind to each other. May your house be filled with much laughter. And may the desire of your hearts always be to sing the other person’s song.” -Mark Timm (August 4, 2018) I don’t hate my husband. I also don’t understand why modern culture seems to believe that I should. Culture, … More Singing Someone Else’s Song
Six years ago, I sat in an old Buick with the boy I liked as we ate Taco Bell and listened to Jack Johnson Pandora. We’d been seeing each other a little over a month at this point, but that month was intense. It was full of obvious attraction, long walks, and dances under a … More The Unlikely Friendship of Happy and Hard
I haven’t been on top of the book reviews the way I like. Let’s be honest, when am I ever on top of it? But I wanted to authentically share what I read, what I liked, and what I didn’t like. I decided the easiest way to do this was to take it in bite … More 2019 Reads and Reviews pt. 1
Wait, this website still exists? I understand your confusion, that was my precise thought when I got an e-mail telling me to either pay $40 or lose my domain name. I mentioned it to my husband, because I’ve recently learned that it is wife etiquette to mention any new purchases you may be making over … More Comeback Kid
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